Wandering Aimlessly

Well, I did it. I decided which job to take. It was probably the hardest decision of my life, so far. Especially since whichever I chose would potentially lead me on such divergent paths. I think the thing that tipped the scale was that, if I took Disney, I would have six months of an awesome job and I'd get to spend it with a good friend, but after that, I'd be struggling. I can't see supporting myself on part-time Disney pay, and I'd probably end up killing myself with multiple jobs while I tried desperately to work my way up into a "better" job. I'm not sure I'm passionate enough about working there to do that.

If I take the bank job, I see it as a continuation of my education. I will spend a year or two being trained in sales, marketing and management. When that two years is over, I will have experience in all of those things, which I can apply to any number of careers. At that point, I can go back to Disney and apply for that "better" job, without having had to bust my butt on multiple low-paying jobs to get there. I think, for me, this is the best route to take. And Carolyn, perhaps we will work together yet. =) I don't think I've congratulated you officially in my blog, either, so CONGRATULATIONS, C!

It kills me to turn down the Guest Relations, though, because it's really a compliment to have gotten it. They interview all over the United States, and Epcot gets second go at their interns (after MK, which I wouldn't really want to work at, anyway). Therefore, not only was it a compliment to be picked, but it was a compliment to be picked by Epcot. It's really hard to turn down something like that. But Carolyn, you'll have to let me live vicariously through you. Good luck, my friend, and I'll state for the record that, even though I chose to turn down Disney, I'm very, very jealous that you get to have this experience. *g* Enjoy it for all it's worth!!

For two days, the only offer I'd gotten was with the bank. So for two days, I didn't have a choice, and I'd have just gone and done that. And if I hadn't had this other offer with the bank, I'd have taken Disney in an INSTANT. There would be no question about it. So maybe being given this decision to make, being given the choice, was meant to make me seriously evaluate my life and the direction I want it to take. So I've done that. Now I just have to take a deep breath and hope that I made the right decision.